We always think my man is the exception; he possibly can’t lie to me. He is good, he is sincere, he means it and he’ll marry me. I thought the same too, he possibly could not lie to me he wouldn’t. Strangely enough I still believe it today, believe he was telling the truth but just did not put as much effort to his word. That may be true; it’s no longer of great concern to me at this present moment. All I’m concerned about is reconnecting with my self, getting past the pain of a broken heart, the biggest disappointment.

Every girl dreams of the perfect man, spectacular wedding and wonderful home with beautiful children. I had seen the not so perfect sides of love however; there are single mothers because the perfect man didn’t stay long enough to catch just a glimpse of his offspring. I did not expect much in the love arena until I met him who swept me off my feet. Surely he had to be an exception. He could not possibly have been lying to me. My heart was quickly lost to love and soon my mind would follow. I could not picture a more perfect life without him.

To him went my heart, mind and life. Then he made his ex pregnant. There was of cause good explanation to all this, a moment of madness when libido got the better of him. She moved in with him, this too was nicely explained to a very understanding love stricken heart and mind. But with time even the love stricken expects action to follow words. Every woman has a pride and self-worth beyond which no compromise can be made. But how do you disentangle yourself when you have given your heart, mind and life.

A roller coaster ride, that no one can prepare you for, begins and takes you to heights you never imagined. Emotional ups and downs as one tries to rediscover that thing which we call me. Loneliness becomes a song until the day you choose to let go of the pain and embrace freedom, love and laughter again. It’s never easy to start anew from a relationship no matter how short. Rediscovery is exciting yet tiring, exhilarating yet exhausting. Exceptions are there but the ordinary far outweighs them.